Haunting Regret
What’s the one regret you can’t work through?
You got it baby, mine would be you
Yeah you got it baby, mine would be you
As if the morning wasn’t emotional enough, I had to hear these lyrics and think of you. The tears were instantaneous–a build-up of what-ifs, disappointments, and lost love–flowing down my cheeks, intermingled with sobs. I am still mad as hell at you after all these years. You just gave up on everything and walked away. You never even gave me and you a chance. I had loved you from the first night we met, and after 4 1/2 years of loving you, you just walked away. Do you know that every relationship I have had since you has been shit? Of course you don’t, because we haven’t spoke in over two years now. I am still trying to figure out why I can’t let you go. Is it the regret I can’t work through, or do I still love you after all this time?
Fat Bottom Girl Said What 
One thing is true, about most of us men, We tend to have the same relationships over and over and over And always with the same result. I call it relationship insanity. You know, doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results? Some men eventually learn, some dont. It is an unfortunate man thing, for some.
You’re fond memories of the past Are better than any future with that turd could ever be. Fortunately, my theory is not absolute! The perfect guy is waiting out there for you to Put that old turd In perspective. Take your time, Cherish the good memories and get ready for some new ones.
Well, let me clarify and say that the guy I am speaking of, is someone from long ago, not this most recent, regrettable ex who got physical with me. I don’t miss him in the least, and say good riddance to bad rubbish!!
I think that women too, tend to have the same relationships over and over, so it’s not just a man thing—which would mean we’re all insane!! lol I know I have done it, and am trying really hard not to do it again, so am currently biding my time to see what happens in the old arena of love. I think the reason I have that “haunting regret” is because that guy was different—we were great friends, and were totally accepting of each other, and you just don’t find that very often.
By the way BTP, for a cat, you are quite wise. How did you become so wise?? 😉
I don’t think I’m wise, But I did have a revelation once… I noticed that the people around me having the most problems? Were the people who weren’t paying attention. So I started paying attention. I’ve stopped doing things automatically. Saves me time and frustration.
When it comes to me and men, I should probably do the exact opposite of what I usually do!! lol
Seriously, you know what I think? I think when people go about their business, really being themselves, The right person automatically shows up. Don’t ever settle. Just be yourself and be patient. Oh! Remember when you are dating that Is the absolute best that person will ever be! If that isn’t good enough… They never will be!
Well, that’s enough of my Bladther.
I think you are spot on! I am currently going about the business of my mundane existence, sprinkled with Jerry Springer-esque chair-throwing moments, and trying to figure out how to be the best me I can be. I know–they will never get any better than they are in the first 3 months—after that it’s all down hill from there!! lol
Definitely, dating a “10” And getting a real life “8” Is a pretty good deal.
I would agree. 🙂