Overexposed Nerves Lead to Numbness
The effect I used on this photo is called “overexposed”. It perfectly describes the way I am feeling tonight. This is a photo of a new wall in my upstairs bathroom, which I just got done putting a second coat of paint on. When I paint I think. Sometimes that’s a good thing, but tonight it wasn’t because I thought about The Fuck Stick. I am starting to delve into it. It’s what I do. I dive into the deep pool of crap, immerse myself in it until I nearly drown, and only then can I right myself and swim for the surface. This is the way I deal with shit in my life. I have to pick it apart, to try to reassemble it in an order that makes sense. For awhile I will have a had time being overly jovial and will probably isolate myself. These times are uncomfortable, but necessary. It means the healing has begun.