No Escape
The knowledge of it was too much
the pain and the shame it carried with it was too much
and it was like you didn’t even care
you didn’t care because you were too much too
it was all more than I wanted to deal with
drunk
fed up
I drained the last drink from the beer bottle
and I smashed it against the sink
you did nothing
as I stood there and began cutting
with that sharp piece of brown glass
I didn’t so much want an end
to my life
as I did to the knowledge
and the pain and the shame
cut
slice the skin and make me feel
some other type of pain
the physical more bearable than the emotional
the blood ran down my hand before you noticed
there was no comfort to be found in you
since I only wanted release from you too
I will never escape what you did
no matter how much I slice off
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