I have been thinking I wanted to travel, to mark some things off my bucket list. I thought this until I got hundreds of miles away from home. Right now I feel lonely, miserable, almost sick to my stomach, because I only want to be home. I am in a new relationship and all my old anxieties are surfacing. Even though he has told me he will be there when I get home, I don’t believe it. He hasn’t answered a call or a text message for the last five hours. It is making me crazy. I am allowing it to make me crazy. I want to be able to soothe myself, and know that all is well. How in the fuck do I do that?? I miss him. I want to hear his voice. I want him to make me laugh like he always does, then I will know everything is fine. Why do I feel like I am testing myself?